Unhappiness

Lately I have been feeling such unhappiness with life. I am frustrated with myself. I am tired of being asked how much longer I am going to be on crutches. I don't know. I am already going against Doctor orders and hobbling around the house just so I can feel "normal". I think that I should be further along when I am asked how many weeks I am. It makes me just feel unhappy like I am such a burden. Dr. Millis said no PT until he sees a current set of xrays. Of course he could have had the 3rd set if the original appt hadn't been cancelled because Dr.Buhr wasn't hearing anything from Dr. Millis. Well he wasn't responding because it was taking 2-3 weeks for him to even receive the xrays. Now that is put on the clinic. Just frustrated with those around me.

I don't want to hear how young I am or that someone else has it worse then me. Yes both are right. I am young and there are others who have it worse. But I am struggling to just get through each day. Dusty goes to work and comes home tired from walking all day. The laundry doesn't just stop. The kids like to eat so dishes are always in the sink piling up. The floors are a catch all from what doesn't make it into the kids' mouths. Two are still in diapers all day. The little ones need baths. It doesn't stop because mommy hurts or mommy is learning to walk again.

I am trying to get through this but it is hard! I am smiling but so close to tears. I just want to yell at those around me but I don't. Instead I just keep on living each day, knowing that I can do this.