One year ago today, I was undergoing my first surgery on my left hip. I wasn't nervous at this point. I just didn't know what to expect. Because when I flew out the day before, I knew that when I flew back home that I would be on my journey to recovery. And then I would know. But I didn't know about that in between part. But I was soon to find out.
Thankfully we aren't given the ability to know the future. Because for me knowing the journey that I was to face over the next year, I would have said no. It would have been too much for me to see how I was going to get through all I was to face and get to where I am today. But God knew. And He gave us the ability to live and enjoy the present. What happened yesterday can't be changed. What happens tomorrow, I don't know. But today is what is happening and that is where I need to be living.
Each day may have been a struggle. I wanted my mother but she was undergoing chemo. But yet I couldn't be there for her because I was recovering. I expected and wanted more from family but was hurt when words wounded me. Or when understanding wasn't there. I hurt physically and emotionally. But this was the only way I could learn to find me.
God has a plan and along the way I lost myself and who I was. I dwelled on my hurt and wounds. But prayer is powerful. A daily prayer to God, who is loving, merciful, and forgiving. He gave me light. Just as Dr. Millis gave me hope with my hips.
I am no longer having to tell my children "Mommy hurts today." I no longer need to rely on strong narcotics to get me through every single day. But instead find that tylenol will do. Even better I have not felt that horrible pain that would last any where from a day to weeks on end. I just now tell myself slow and steady, warm those joints.
How beautiful is this new life I have been given! A new outlook of how wonderful the simplicity of life truly is! Happy One Year to my Left Hip!
Just one year ago was the start of a beautiful new journey in my life.
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