Friday, June 12, 2015

Guidance through our darkness

I saw a NaPro dr this week.  She was helpful but I have to go back in two months.  She uses the creighton model for cycle charting.  We took the Family of Americas NFP class.

That was disheartening.  I know it will be good in the long run.  But in the moment you can't help but feel sad as I just want answers now to the why.  Impatient is what I feel I am.

I went on ahead and scheduled our initial class for June 22.  And then followups to make sure I am grasping the charting.

Along this I also get to track my moods and what I eat.

I guess I just feel confused.

On a different note, my youngest sister found out she doesn't qualify for a PAO.  The dr she saw felt she wasn't a candidate for the surgery as her hips were too far gone to make it worth it.  So now she is looking at trying to hold off or just schedule a hip replacement.  As I wasn't faced with making that choice, I am trying to help her out.  I feel like she is doing things that don't make sense to me.

She went on ahead and scheduled her hip replacements with the dr she saw in St Loiuse.  I don't understand as there are local surgeons that are fully capable of doing hip replacements.  I know she wants to meet her deductible by doing both hips in the same year.  I also feel she should send her X-rays off to other top notch drs and get their opinions on her hip issue.  And also to schedule with a local ortho dr as he would be the one to followup with and can also help guide her on their thoughts about a hip replacement.

But I am not her.  I just know what I went through and just wasn't easy.  I want to help her ease the stress she must be feeling.  And also that she isn't alone through this.  I don't want her to make such haste decisions right now as much as she wants too because her pain is there more and possibly on a daily basis.  I just want her to take one step at a time and I don't want to see her hurt.

Maybe all I can do is pray for her guidance for now.  Just like I need to pray for my own guidance.

He will give if it is in His will for us.
He won't give if doesn't fit in His will for us.
He will wait to give as He has a better plan for us. 
And all this can be hard when we want now.  

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