Today was to be my surgery day. In a way it is a relief to have it here and to let it go now. It saddens me a bit to know that I have to wait for another surgery day. But I will get that day and that day will be meant for me. This day just wasn't it. Last night was kind of a hard night for me, just knowing that today I could be in surgery and on my way to recovery. But when I finally woke for the day, I just had to let the day go and move on. I will get my day. I will get to feeling better. My hips won't give out on me. I won't stand up and feel like an 80 year old arthritic woman. One day I will be able to do things that I want to do. The simple things that everybody else around me can do- walk without PAIN, walk without FEAR.
I think the Lord is letting the morning sickness ease up today and yesterday. He knew I would have a hard time and that I didn't need to be so sick. It just is hard to know that I have to wait. I know there is a reason for this happening. But I just want to feel better. I just want to be able to go for a walk without feeling sore or hurting afterwards. I really am ok. I just need to let this day go. I will get mine. I will. Just not yet but soon. I just don't know when that day will be. It would make me feel better to have a day but I will get it in time. I just have to wait and be patient.
Today is my mother's birthday. So I get to be here for that. I am going to make her dinner- manicotti. My sister gets her ultrasound today and will find out boy or girl. How exciting. And what a day.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Not Much Here
For the past couple of days, the morning sickness has really gotten to me. I have been struggling to keep down even a simple cracker. I have found myself on the couch or recliner. And that means the house and laundry have all been put on the back burner. I tried pepperment tea and that hit rock bottom to come and it the toilet bottom. It has been rough and I really debated on going into the ER for an IV but I just didn't know. ER visits can be very pricey and all they tell you is to drink your fluids. Ok they would have hydrated by IV and given me medications through the IV also. But I decided not to and to wait it out.
Dusty had off today, so he cleaned the house and did laundry. He even cleaned our room, which has been neglected and not even put on the list to do. Well just not now. He ran the sweeper and loaded the dishwasher for me. I tried to help but ended up back on the couch for a little snooze. Ok more like because I was going to pass out if I didn't lay down. I felt really weak and dizzy. I just didn't feel good. After I rested for a bit, I sat up and wanted. And I stress WANTED some crunchy veggies to eat. So I ate some which tasted good but then started to upset my tummy so I hurriedly took my zofran and laid back down. I wasn't going to let it come back up. It was successful nothing came back up.
I have also managed to keep down fruit. My mom also had fixed a big dinner for my sister's birthday. And I was able to eat a little bit and keep it down. I also kept sucking on mints, one after another. Maybe that helped too. But whatever it was, I am thankful that it stayed down.
On the way home, I started thinking, because this week we were to be in Boston having surgery. But I started to think how I might not be able to schedule the surgery. I will probably need new xrays, which I hope I can get done here and sent to him. Or if I can schedule surgery then maybe during preop we can get xrays then. But questions about scheduling started to come up. I know it is a ways off but hey with 5 kids and another on the way I like to have an idea of what to plan for. I do hope that I can go ahead and schedule the surgery without having to have xrays done first. I will have to call Renee, his surgery coordinator or at least email in the fall to ask her.
My hips have been much better then I ever expected. They do give out on occassions but just on occassions. Of course it hurts but doesn't leave me in pain. It has crossed my mind that since they aren't bothering me am I doing more harm to them. I mean when they hurt before I would take it easy. But now that they aren't bothering me, I guess I just worry that I might be damaging them more. Of course, since I have been battling the morning sickness and laying around that I am not moving around much. So perhaps I am not doing harm to them.
By the way, the kids helped their daddy out by cleaning up the living room and their rooms. Now they are being rewarded by watching Toy Story 2. They are such cute movies. Even the the one year old loves to watch and it keeps her attention. I can't wait for the 3rd movie. It will make for a great family treat.
Dusty had off today, so he cleaned the house and did laundry. He even cleaned our room, which has been neglected and not even put on the list to do. Well just not now. He ran the sweeper and loaded the dishwasher for me. I tried to help but ended up back on the couch for a little snooze. Ok more like because I was going to pass out if I didn't lay down. I felt really weak and dizzy. I just didn't feel good. After I rested for a bit, I sat up and wanted. And I stress WANTED some crunchy veggies to eat. So I ate some which tasted good but then started to upset my tummy so I hurriedly took my zofran and laid back down. I wasn't going to let it come back up. It was successful nothing came back up.
I have also managed to keep down fruit. My mom also had fixed a big dinner for my sister's birthday. And I was able to eat a little bit and keep it down. I also kept sucking on mints, one after another. Maybe that helped too. But whatever it was, I am thankful that it stayed down.
On the way home, I started thinking, because this week we were to be in Boston having surgery. But I started to think how I might not be able to schedule the surgery. I will probably need new xrays, which I hope I can get done here and sent to him. Or if I can schedule surgery then maybe during preop we can get xrays then. But questions about scheduling started to come up. I know it is a ways off but hey with 5 kids and another on the way I like to have an idea of what to plan for. I do hope that I can go ahead and schedule the surgery without having to have xrays done first. I will have to call Renee, his surgery coordinator or at least email in the fall to ask her.
My hips have been much better then I ever expected. They do give out on occassions but just on occassions. Of course it hurts but doesn't leave me in pain. It has crossed my mind that since they aren't bothering me am I doing more harm to them. I mean when they hurt before I would take it easy. But now that they aren't bothering me, I guess I just worry that I might be damaging them more. Of course, since I have been battling the morning sickness and laying around that I am not moving around much. So perhaps I am not doing harm to them.
By the way, the kids helped their daddy out by cleaning up the living room and their rooms. Now they are being rewarded by watching Toy Story 2. They are such cute movies. Even the the one year old loves to watch and it keeps her attention. I can't wait for the 3rd movie. It will make for a great family treat.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Search and Find
Saturday I went out garage saling. The little town we live in had their annual city wide garage sale. So that meant a very busy neighborhood. I was included in that crowd. I was on a mission but I didn't get out as early as planned. Some dilemnas occurred that set me back. One was Hannah got into the rice krispy cereal in her room. There was krispies on her bed, floor, and hallway. ARGH. Then Hannah wouldn't get dressed. But finally we did make it out the door and about that time, my mom showed up and she walked with us. We headed down one of the circle streets first and immediately found this hardly used green radio flyer inchworm. Adorable and for a great deal. Then I found a shelf for another great deal. Exciting. As we were heading back home to drop it off, my sister called and asked where we were. I told her almost at the corner and heading home. About that time she spotted us.
Mom decided to stay behind and watch the little ones. So then we headed back out in search of a used crib. Mine is coming apart on the bottom. I also was looking for an updated pack n play, shelves to put all my canned goods on in the basement, outdoor play stuff, and a dresser. I was unsuccessful in finding any of these. I found a beautiful bassinet but I didn't need that, I needed a crib. There was a lot of clothes but I already have an abundance of that too. It was fun. We walked from one end to the next end, down the circle streets. We did have to make another pit stop to use the bathroom. His dad showed up at that time to get Brady. Emma and Hannah went to. Thank goodness Hannah went. She was whiny when she didn't get a small trampoline or a stuffed animal. I told her that she had a big trampoline out back but that didn't satify her. She was just in her mood. Once returning home I noticed that my back was really stiff and I could hardly sit down. And then when I stood up to go for round three, my hips were stiff and locking up. But it wasn't going to stop me. I was on a mission.
So round three didn't lead me to find any of the items I was in search to find. But I did find some beautiful old hankies. They had such beautiful embroidery work on them. They reminded me of my grandmas' that she had. I have only one that I carried when I got married. But I bought 3 sets of 5 a piece. I also bought a freezer bag size of hem tape, and bias tape- all of multicolors. Very useful to me since I sew and bias tape alone can cost $2.00 for one package. So yes very worth it. Ok that stuff may have not been on the list but hey why pass on something for yourself and at a bargain price. It made me feel good. Well we returned back home. Sarah and her little boy left and she took Arianna with her and headed off to the zoo. I asked mom if she would take me to the older neighborhood across the stoplight. She did. And I didn't even look at the time to see how much time I had before the kids would be returning from Brady's soccer game. I didn't check my email to see if the dance teacher had written me back about the days Arianna dances in the recital. I was focused on two things. Looking for my items and now not getting sick. But nothing was going to stop me. Well his dad called me and I told my mom we have to hurry home, I forgot about the kids and time. So we hurried through the mess of cars. Dusty was mad because I wasn't home. His dad asked me the days to get tickets for Arianna's recital and how many to get. I didn't have any answers. I was to wrapped up in my search and find quest. So I asked him to call Dusty and ask him. So me and mom headed back out because there was this one house that had a lot of furniture and I wanted to go back there. But then Dusty called and told me to go home and check my email NOW. So I did but nothing. So I called the studio. And the lady on the phone told me the days she was to perform. So I headed back out to the car to go look but as my mom started off I changed my mind. I felt so sick. She asked if I wanted lunch for the kids and I told her that was fine. But I fought the sickness the whole time. I was mad and frustrated. I never did get to that house. So who knows. But there will be more garage sales. So I haven't given up yet.
My hip held up but later that day I couldn't hardly move. I was stiff and sore. I really just wanted to cry. This what I didn't want to feel like. I just want to be able to go walking without wondering, am I going to hurt. Will I be able to move. I can't sleep either. I am feeling sick, frustrated, and I hurt. I don't want to take tylenol for it only to come back up. And tylenol burns coming back. I am feeling overwhelmed, emotional, and disappointed
Mom decided to stay behind and watch the little ones. So then we headed back out in search of a used crib. Mine is coming apart on the bottom. I also was looking for an updated pack n play, shelves to put all my canned goods on in the basement, outdoor play stuff, and a dresser. I was unsuccessful in finding any of these. I found a beautiful bassinet but I didn't need that, I needed a crib. There was a lot of clothes but I already have an abundance of that too. It was fun. We walked from one end to the next end, down the circle streets. We did have to make another pit stop to use the bathroom. His dad showed up at that time to get Brady. Emma and Hannah went to. Thank goodness Hannah went. She was whiny when she didn't get a small trampoline or a stuffed animal. I told her that she had a big trampoline out back but that didn't satify her. She was just in her mood. Once returning home I noticed that my back was really stiff and I could hardly sit down. And then when I stood up to go for round three, my hips were stiff and locking up. But it wasn't going to stop me. I was on a mission.
So round three didn't lead me to find any of the items I was in search to find. But I did find some beautiful old hankies. They had such beautiful embroidery work on them. They reminded me of my grandmas' that she had. I have only one that I carried when I got married. But I bought 3 sets of 5 a piece. I also bought a freezer bag size of hem tape, and bias tape- all of multicolors. Very useful to me since I sew and bias tape alone can cost $2.00 for one package. So yes very worth it. Ok that stuff may have not been on the list but hey why pass on something for yourself and at a bargain price. It made me feel good. Well we returned back home. Sarah and her little boy left and she took Arianna with her and headed off to the zoo. I asked mom if she would take me to the older neighborhood across the stoplight. She did. And I didn't even look at the time to see how much time I had before the kids would be returning from Brady's soccer game. I didn't check my email to see if the dance teacher had written me back about the days Arianna dances in the recital. I was focused on two things. Looking for my items and now not getting sick. But nothing was going to stop me. Well his dad called me and I told my mom we have to hurry home, I forgot about the kids and time. So we hurried through the mess of cars. Dusty was mad because I wasn't home. His dad asked me the days to get tickets for Arianna's recital and how many to get. I didn't have any answers. I was to wrapped up in my search and find quest. So I asked him to call Dusty and ask him. So me and mom headed back out because there was this one house that had a lot of furniture and I wanted to go back there. But then Dusty called and told me to go home and check my email NOW. So I did but nothing. So I called the studio. And the lady on the phone told me the days she was to perform. So I headed back out to the car to go look but as my mom started off I changed my mind. I felt so sick. She asked if I wanted lunch for the kids and I told her that was fine. But I fought the sickness the whole time. I was mad and frustrated. I never did get to that house. So who knows. But there will be more garage sales. So I haven't given up yet.
My hip held up but later that day I couldn't hardly move. I was stiff and sore. I really just wanted to cry. This what I didn't want to feel like. I just want to be able to go walking without wondering, am I going to hurt. Will I be able to move. I can't sleep either. I am feeling sick, frustrated, and I hurt. I don't want to take tylenol for it only to come back up. And tylenol burns coming back. I am feeling overwhelmed, emotional, and disappointed
Monday, April 12, 2010
Success!
I was successful this morning. I can officially give the thumbs up. I know it is gross but when you can't go it causes so many other problems and discomforts. And ahhhh, a much better feeling but still sick. It didn't help me to feel a bit better. Oh well.
Ok so whatever sickness/bug is going around I FOR SURE don't want- as my Brady boy would put it. My mom, brother, his dad, and Paylynn have the stomach flu and diarrhea. I have my own issues I don't need this one.
I started to think that maybe my hips don't hurt as bad because I am focused on always not getting sick and constantly fighting it. I don't know but it is just crazy. I know that i have bad days in store for me. But I just pray that it isn't anything like I had been feeling like. I just want to enjoy being pregnant. I know as I get bigger that they will give out more.
What a short post but I had to tell all about my success. Dusty didn't pick up or my mom. I just wanted to share the good news!
Ok so whatever sickness/bug is going around I FOR SURE don't want- as my Brady boy would put it. My mom, brother, his dad, and Paylynn have the stomach flu and diarrhea. I have my own issues I don't need this one.
I started to think that maybe my hips don't hurt as bad because I am focused on always not getting sick and constantly fighting it. I don't know but it is just crazy. I know that i have bad days in store for me. But I just pray that it isn't anything like I had been feeling like. I just want to enjoy being pregnant. I know as I get bigger that they will give out more.
What a short post but I had to tell all about my success. Dusty didn't pick up or my mom. I just wanted to share the good news!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Just Another Week
Ok so last week was more like pre-activity warmup. I am really battling to keep down whatever I eat. My mom is always shocked how I can talk and laugh when I am around others. I don't know it is just me. But give the wrong smell or I feel something gross you better move because upcoming spew will be flying everywhere. Sorry for the description. But that is what is feels like. I haven't taken my zofran for a couple days now because it is really backing me up. I would eat more high fiber foods, or drink more fluids but I have to eat what sounds good otherwise I will be sorry. I don't really want to bring up past food. I am taking colace stool softners and not taking prenatals right now. At least not until I can have success. I have never looked forward to seeing a result in the toilet but I want to see something. This backup could be adding to my yucky feelings. Maybe nexts posts I can post a thumbs up.
Right now my hips are giving out on me. The pain isn't bad. I haven't had to take tylenol. Except for Saturday I almost gave in. Brady had his First Communion. And I wore high heels with my dress. He wore his suit and looked so handsome and grownup.
But I missed him walkin. I had been up early doing last minute things to the house. The day before I had the kids clean their rooms and they were back there for such a long time and so when they came out to tell us their rooms were cleaned. I just believed them and never checked. I woke up Sat. and about freaked. They spent a whole lot of time shoving everything along their walls and under their beds. They didn't even pick up their trash. So I went back to their rooms and quickly went around the room and picked up to my standard of what would just have to do. I ran the sweeper and mopped the floors. I finally got into the shower and my sister came over and got the two younger girls dressed. Dusty had gotten up to church to save pews. But it was already full and could only save one. So not everyone could sit together. But I hurriedly rushed around to get ready.
My sister and I left the house but we hit every red light including the stop walk light going there. She dropped me off at the door and I tried to run in but I couldn't with the heels. So when I got into church they were playing the music and they were walking in. But I thought that I still had a chance and snuck into the back to sneak a peek. But I just missed him. So I turned around and waited in the back of church. I took off my darn heels but had to put them back on because the panty hose I wore and the type of floor just meant an accident waiting to happen-falling on my butt. I was frustrated, upset and not feeling good but trying to fake it. My sister came in with Paylynn and her little boy. And she was shocked to see me in the back. I told her we were late. She felt bad but I told her if she hadn't come over to help that I would have missed everything. So we both just waited and let the toddlers play in the back of church. But I did get to see him recieve. He was adorable and had the biggest smile.
I should never have worn the darn heels. I haven't worn heels for almost two years. I just hurt after wearing them. And towards the end I started feeling really sick. I just wanted to get out of my dress and heels. Which I did once I got home. It was probably not a good thing but I had too. I needed comfortable clothes and shoes. I was hurting and sore. And I had to what had to do.
Paylynn has also been sick with the stomach flu and diarrhea. She isn't getting sick anymore but still having the runs. Poor baby. Dusty was also sick on Thurs. and stayed home. so once I got those two better to where they were more like themselves. i had my day on Friday. I just felt so sick. I am not ready for this.
On a happier note, I saw Taylor Swift on April 1. I loved the concert. The vibrations were going up my already aching left hip and causing pulsations in it but I didn't let it get me down. Ok there was a brief moment when I felt like crying but I fought through it because I wanted to enjoy her. I love all her songs. And when she came out I just wanted to scream but I didn't I was just so very excited. And when she started singing so did I. It was what I have been needing. That uplifting moment to take me away to a night of enjoyment for me. It was just so fun. And then when she sang her last song I felt sad because the fun was going to end. But I did have such a fun time. It was wonderful for me and him to just get out. And I loved seeing her and listening to her. It was a good night and what we both needed.
So here is the end to anothe week on to new adventures with the new upcoming week. I wonder what this week has in store for me. That is what is new with me during this waiting period. I could hold off on posting but I still have hips and now pregnant. So maybe someone out there with hip problems will find these posts helpful and just fun to read. But whatever the reason for reading, it helps me to air out so I can get through whatever life has in store for me.
Right now my hips are giving out on me. The pain isn't bad. I haven't had to take tylenol. Except for Saturday I almost gave in. Brady had his First Communion. And I wore high heels with my dress. He wore his suit and looked so handsome and grownup.
But I missed him walkin. I had been up early doing last minute things to the house. The day before I had the kids clean their rooms and they were back there for such a long time and so when they came out to tell us their rooms were cleaned. I just believed them and never checked. I woke up Sat. and about freaked. They spent a whole lot of time shoving everything along their walls and under their beds. They didn't even pick up their trash. So I went back to their rooms and quickly went around the room and picked up to my standard of what would just have to do. I ran the sweeper and mopped the floors. I finally got into the shower and my sister came over and got the two younger girls dressed. Dusty had gotten up to church to save pews. But it was already full and could only save one. So not everyone could sit together. But I hurriedly rushed around to get ready.
My sister and I left the house but we hit every red light including the stop walk light going there. She dropped me off at the door and I tried to run in but I couldn't with the heels. So when I got into church they were playing the music and they were walking in. But I thought that I still had a chance and snuck into the back to sneak a peek. But I just missed him. So I turned around and waited in the back of church. I took off my darn heels but had to put them back on because the panty hose I wore and the type of floor just meant an accident waiting to happen-falling on my butt. I was frustrated, upset and not feeling good but trying to fake it. My sister came in with Paylynn and her little boy. And she was shocked to see me in the back. I told her we were late. She felt bad but I told her if she hadn't come over to help that I would have missed everything. So we both just waited and let the toddlers play in the back of church. But I did get to see him recieve. He was adorable and had the biggest smile.
I should never have worn the darn heels. I haven't worn heels for almost two years. I just hurt after wearing them. And towards the end I started feeling really sick. I just wanted to get out of my dress and heels. Which I did once I got home. It was probably not a good thing but I had too. I needed comfortable clothes and shoes. I was hurting and sore. And I had to what had to do.
Paylynn has also been sick with the stomach flu and diarrhea. She isn't getting sick anymore but still having the runs. Poor baby. Dusty was also sick on Thurs. and stayed home. so once I got those two better to where they were more like themselves. i had my day on Friday. I just felt so sick. I am not ready for this.
On a happier note, I saw Taylor Swift on April 1. I loved the concert. The vibrations were going up my already aching left hip and causing pulsations in it but I didn't let it get me down. Ok there was a brief moment when I felt like crying but I fought through it because I wanted to enjoy her. I love all her songs. And when she came out I just wanted to scream but I didn't I was just so very excited. And when she started singing so did I. It was what I have been needing. That uplifting moment to take me away to a night of enjoyment for me. It was just so fun. And then when she sang her last song I felt sad because the fun was going to end. But I did have such a fun time. It was wonderful for me and him to just get out. And I loved seeing her and listening to her. It was a good night and what we both needed.
So here is the end to anothe week on to new adventures with the new upcoming week. I wonder what this week has in store for me. That is what is new with me during this waiting period. I could hold off on posting but I still have hips and now pregnant. So maybe someone out there with hip problems will find these posts helpful and just fun to read. But whatever the reason for reading, it helps me to air out so I can get through whatever life has in store for me.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Don't Rock the Boat
Today has officially marked the day of the start of morning sickness,ok Sunday. I knew it was coming because since Friday I have felt nauseated. Ok maybe even before then. I do know that Friday I called the OB and asked for something because I was afraid it might hit over the weekend. Well it did on Easter Sunday but I only got sick twice in the early morning. Not bad. So it was good to have the zofran. By the way, the price on this medication has really come down. Because I had it with our fourth baby and I paid $99.00 and that was with insurance. This time for 30 pills was only $11.00. Much better and affordable. Of course I can't really put a price on a pill that is going to get me through the day. It is odd too because I feel sick and am just starting to get sick but I crave food almost like I haven't eaten in days. Not a good thing because I am going to get fat. My pants are already too tight. And I already have a tummy. But this could be due to baby number 6 and all the muscle being so relaxed. Well, hey, it makes me feel better then to think I might actually just be fat at this point.
About my hips I must say that they have been doing well. I haven't taken Tylenol hardly this week like I was last week. I am wearing flip flops today. I will hardly ever do that because I will hurt afterwards. I did notice that when I took them off and sat down for a bit while the babies were napping that my right hip started to bother me. But I honestly can't complain. The pain is no where near what I was feeling just two weeks ago. I am amazed at this. I have even forgotten at times that I have something wrong but then it will give out and I will remember. Maybe I forget because I am pregnant- pregnancy amnesia. Why not blame it all being pregnant. It might help me sleep at night.
Paylynn is sick today with the stomach flu and horrible diarrhea. I think this is what made me run to the porcelean goddess. The smell and texture, well everything, was too much for my already queasy stomach. I have also been really super tired. Dusty has been wonderful the last two days and I have been able to take a nap. And it was much needed. I just feel like I am not functioning like my usual self. I know the house is suffering. And I have a First Communion party this Saturday so I better get on it. Ok the house isn't bad but isn't anywhere near perfect either. Just somewhere in the middle. So my feelings of cleaning the house are in neutral. I will get on it.
I will post more later, right now I have a "duty" to change. And then I have to pick up the kids. But when I get a chance again, I will update some more.
About my hips I must say that they have been doing well. I haven't taken Tylenol hardly this week like I was last week. I am wearing flip flops today. I will hardly ever do that because I will hurt afterwards. I did notice that when I took them off and sat down for a bit while the babies were napping that my right hip started to bother me. But I honestly can't complain. The pain is no where near what I was feeling just two weeks ago. I am amazed at this. I have even forgotten at times that I have something wrong but then it will give out and I will remember. Maybe I forget because I am pregnant- pregnancy amnesia. Why not blame it all being pregnant. It might help me sleep at night.
Paylynn is sick today with the stomach flu and horrible diarrhea. I think this is what made me run to the porcelean goddess. The smell and texture, well everything, was too much for my already queasy stomach. I have also been really super tired. Dusty has been wonderful the last two days and I have been able to take a nap. And it was much needed. I just feel like I am not functioning like my usual self. I know the house is suffering. And I have a First Communion party this Saturday so I better get on it. Ok the house isn't bad but isn't anywhere near perfect either. Just somewhere in the middle. So my feelings of cleaning the house are in neutral. I will get on it.
I will post more later, right now I have a "duty" to change. And then I have to pick up the kids. But when I get a chance again, I will update some more.
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