This post is really more to vent my frustrations. I am the person who tries to put the smile on my face and hide what I feel on the inside. But sometimes we just need to let go because then can others truly understand our true feelings and begin to understand the truth. I am trying to be positive and so many of the women on my groups have such bad days. I just want them to feel better so I offer encouraging words but it seems the past couple of encouraging words I have offered have been overrided by negativity. Surgery isn't fun and it isn't EVER easy. But we all need to take a step back and remind our self of that but to also tell ourself that we are strong and will get through this. I mean spending a year recovery versus spending the rest of our life in chronic pain. You be the one to choose. Well like I have said previously maybe I should wait in offering advice or encouragement until I get to the other side. I just don't like to see people feeling down. And I will try to make them feel better. For instance I have my mother blaming herself for causing my hip problems. But what I really need is for her to be here for me. I need her to be the strong one so if I lose it she can be here to encourage me to get through the rough patch. And sometimes I could use the help on the really bad days. That is what I need.
On a more sunny note, I have received the packet of info regarding all the times for April 13th pre-op appt. So now I need to get everything in order. It all just seems so overwhelming but I have to remind myself that I can do this and it will all be over soon and that I will be on the road to feeling better. And to make the day a bit better the sun has come out.